catastrophe

"i know you and .. "
"i know it wont take you long to make me smile! OMG MEW."
"huh? no? i know you and i know you're thinking about a boy! .. you're smiling to yourself."
"no i'm not! i'm um, chewing on my lips!"

i think liking someone is called a "crush" only because it will crush your heart. someone who will crush someone else's heart. i wonder if any two people had a crush on each other and will never know about it because none of them would say anything. how sad is that?! tragic, even. la la la la, dont fuck with my heaaart. i cant hear your voice. do i have a choice? i'm hoping with chance. you might take this dance! whenever the songs you've mentioned before suddenly comes on from the iTunes shuffler, i cant help help but to stop doing work and just. stare. into space. this is why work never gets done. this is why i cant sleep most nights. adding on to my advanced insomnia.

i think i've lost my writing mojo. haha mojo .. i havent used that word in a long time. i used to be able to express my feelings into proper heartbroken paragraphs. but now everything that comes out is .. i like you i like you i like you i like you i like you i like you i like you i like you i like you i like you i like you i like you NOTICE ME DAMN IT. theres a reason i dont look you in the eyes. my friends are all going to leave me one day because i'm so annoying and whiny and such a fucking girl at times ..