catastrophe

here i am typing aimlessly into this box when instead i should really be doing my research but i find it extremely motivating to write out my thoughts all the time. it is also very therapeutic. this weekend takes the form of the current weather, with prospects of sunshine and happiness with the looming grey cloud at every corner. i've always loved weddings and i'm terribly excited for this one in particular. there is nothing like the warm fuzzy feeling of witnessing a union between two individuals (and in turn makes you feel like the loneliest person in the world). but i'm okay. we're all okay. it is december and vampire weekend suggests we drink horchata and look psychotic in our balaclavas. maybe i will. maybe i will also stop listening to azure ray's november because it is possibly the most beautifully depressing song. ok off to meet my sonia darling so i'll end this with a quote i find really meaningful and adore endlessly.


"When you’re a teenager and in your early twenties it seems desperately eternal and excruciatingly painful. Whereas as you grow older
you realise that most things are excruciatingly painful and that is the human condition. Most of us continue to survive because we’re
convinced that somewhere along the line, with grit and determination and perseverance, we will end up in some magical union with some-
body. It’s a fallacy, of course, but it’s a form of religion. You have to believe. There is a light that never goes out and it’s called hope."

—Morrissey, "I've always felt like an exile" by Andrew Billen in The Times (30th May 2006)